Friday, December 14, 2007

Seven Months Pregnant

Well, here I am seven months pregnant. I cannot tell a lie though, these were taken three weeks ago! The Christmas decorations have been taken down, and I have done some growing since then - which is easy to do even when you are not pregnant during the holidays! I laugh though, I'm not worried about pounds gained right now. I am more concerned with growing a healthy baby.

Some creative avenues I have been involved in (other than making a baby) are baking, sewing, cross stitch, and knitting. More leisurely activities have been reading, watching movies with my girls, and even playing out in the snow with them. In fact, we even built a snowman today (an activity I haven't participated in since childhood). What fun! We were downright silly, and had so much fun - I literally laughed until I cried! Making memories is a blast!

I have truly been enjoying the nesting phase of my pregnancy, but even to my own surprise, I haven't entirely given up my writing. I am still doing occasional press release projects, editing, and writing for some clients. They have been so good to me and I just can't seem to completely give up this element of my life.

My New Year's writing goals are to do some more creative writing and work on projects that would bring me more personal satisfaction. How about you? What are you working on now, and in what ways would your writing bring you the most joy in the coming year?

I miss you all, and will post again soon!

Thursday, December 06, 2007

Confessions of a Write at Home Mom

Ok, I have some confessions to make:

(1) I am having a hard time focusing on my writing blog. (As if you hadn't noticed!) I get on these kicks where I'm real inspired for a time, possibly because I feel as though I better get writing. After all, it won't be long before baby is here and I will either be too elated about our new baby, or too exhausted from sleepless nights to focus on writing.

(2) I hate letting my blogging friends down. Every day I literally feel guilty because I am not blogging. I see many of you continue to come to my blog to see if I have posted anything lately and I have not.

(3) I am way too preoccupied with being six months pregnant, and anticipating the arrival of my baby. The only "research" I want to do right now is what changes are occurring with my little baby. Can he open his eyes yet, is she at the point yet where she can hear voices outside the womb? What is this baby anyway, a boy or a girl? Will she look like my husband, as little Chloe does, or will she carry any of my traits? Those are the questions I want to know about right now.

(4) I want to do other things. I want to bake breads and cookies to give away to neighbors, to put smiles on the faces of loved ones. Believe it or not, I even want to clean. I want to scrapbook, and write out Christmas cards. I want to paint and express myself in different exciting and creative ways for a little while.

(5) Most importantly, I want to spend precious moments with my husband and daughters before this baby comes. I want to soak in every second because our lives will change when baby arrives. The change will be wonderful and amazing, but it's change none the less, and I feel this need to spend as much time with them as I can - enjoying them, preparing them.

There seems to be a theme here and it starts with "I." I am feeling selfish, but this is my last pregnancy. I do not wish to have more children so being pregnant is particularly special this time. Never again will I feel the miracle of a child growing inside of me. This is the last time I will experience those precious kicks - even the ones that hurt - or the rhythmic sensation of my baby having the hiccups.

Of course, after baby arrives it will be the "last" first smile, first step, first word. This will be the last time I ever nurse a baby. All these moments are precious and they are fleeting. Selfishly, I want to enjoy them all, every single solitary moment. If I don't, I know I will regret it. After all, I am blessed to be able to stay home with my children. There is no excuse for me to not savor it all.

Final confession: I am releasing myself from blogging. I am not abandoning my blog totally right now, but I may not write about writing. Maybe instead I will bore you with how my pregnancy is going, or how much scrap booking I have gotten done. I don't know.

Anyway, I do not know you, but I love you all. Every single one of you has encouraged me in some wonderful and amazing way and you have all helped me to know that some day, when the time is right in my life, writing will be more than a dream. It will be an achievable reality. You are all proof of that. I thank you for that, and hope you won't be too disappointed as I change course in my life for a little while.

I will see you at your blogs, and hopefully here once in a while too! Take care!